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Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Winter Break January 3-11


My mom and I were back in Kansas City after a week of being in Colorado. The day after we got back, we took my phone to Verizon Wireless, where we were able to get me into a new phone using my UCM e-mail account. However, I was not able to figure out the e-mail address and password to get into my old account.
                The next day I went to Starbuck’s again, and later I went to the hardware store and got some more hot glue. After that I got back and made my cross of reclaimed wood. I then finished my bottle cap snake that I had started on some time ago. Then I finished another coaster made from receipts. The next day I went to my appointment with Dr. Mays before getting my flu shot. Later I deposited my tuition check and got my prescription from Dr. Mays in the mail.
                After that I called work and found out I’m off all this week. Then I made fourteen more bracelets from old glow bracelets and strips of snack wrappers. After that I went down to Better Cheddar where I got a new bottle cap from my drink. I also went to Starbuck’s where I got the idea to make an autistic mandala. Then I made my mandala. I also had a dinner of cheese, crackers, garlic cloves, spicy hummus, moose spread, and spicy hummus with my mom. I also talked to my dad, and he liked the mandala that I showed him in a picture. After that I called Jack. I also worked on another snake made from bottle caps.
                I worked on my snake. I also did some laundry and had a peppered chicken sandwich on a sandwich roll with some spicy hummus. Then I went to Bruce Smith and got the Goosebumps book Welcome to Dead House. After that I went down to Starbuck’s where I got the idea to make Buddhist monk sculptures from pinecones and learned about a new Lord of the Rings fan film called The Two Hunters, though lotr.wikia.com said it might not ever be completed. I decided to order some on-line. I also worked on some more receipt coaster and bottle cap snake. I also talked to Tyler.
                The next day I went to Starbuck’s again. I also went to eat with Dad at Minsky’s, where he brought up the subject of what I would do with my career after UCM.
              “Well,” I said, “I would like to do things for the autistic community.”
                “Well, have you thought of getting a degree in Social Work? They do have a program at Columbia and UMKC.”
                “Well, I’d really like to go into Disability Studies.”
                “Oh, I don’t know anything about that.”
                I got back and talked to my Granddad, telling him about the conversation with my dad. 
                “I mean,” I said, “I think I can find a way to get into Disability Studies.”
                “Uh-hu,” he said in a non-committal tone.
                “What?!”
                “I mean maybe you should talk to someone about this. I don’t know anything about this.”
                “Well, what, do you think I can’t do anything for the autistic community with my career without a social work degree.”
                “No, I just said maybe you should talk to someone who knows more about it than I do.”
                “Of course.”
                The next day picked up Tyler and ate lunch in Lawrence. Then we went to visit the Topeka Capitol Building. We got back and had dinner. Then we spent a lot of time watching Mighty Morphin’ Power Rangers. During that time, Jack called and said he would be able to get together the next day.
                I took some time to saw the edges of the boards I brought back from Colorado for my bottle cap signs. Afterwards I went back to Verizon and got my mom and I new chargers. I got back and started getting all my stuff to go to UCM together. After that I went down to Starbuck’s.
                I got back and talked to my granddad, saying to him what I had wanted to say for two days, “Look, I’ve started two groups, two blogs, spoke at a camp and a school for autistic children, and went on Chris Hernandez’s show about autistic adults. I think I can do something even without a social work degree to really help the autistic community with my career!”
                “Well, I do, too,” he said.
                “Really?”
                “Yes. I think you’re going to do wonderful things.”
                “Well thank you. I’m sorry. I was wrong to get so short with you.”
                “Oh, it’s no problem. You were just stressed out.”
                 I drove over to Jack’s place, and he was happy to let me take pictures of his art to share with Artists and Autism. Then we went down to Salsa Grill where I told him about The Friend of Autism Pledge and what it was for, and he agreed to have a look at it when we got back. Once we did, he read over it, thought it was a great idea, and that he would be happy for me to add his name to the list. After that we watched The Sandlot, which I actually enjoyed pretty well. 
                When I got back, I reposted The Friend of Autism Pledge on Facebook. I got back and paid my student tuition. Then I filled out my voting ballet. After that I washed my coat and other laundry. Then my dad got here and delivered my textbooks, a head massager, and several bottle caps, from which I got two new ones from my collection. After that I packed up my stuff for UCM. I went down to Minsky’s and treated myself to some buffalo wings. Then I went to Hen House and had some donuts. My mom paid me for the dinner I got myself, and then I shared one of Jack’s paintings on Artists and Autism. 
                The next day I cuddled with Peter some more while learning about the different species of mammals in Africa. Then I packed up my stuff all the way and loaded it into my mom’s car. I drove down to UCM, feeling perfectly relaxed about driving on the highway. I got to UCM and unpacked. I also learned that I have a new roommate named Jeremy. I met Jeremy, his parents, and his girlfriend, Lisa, who I learned was a child development major and a song leader. 
“What is that?” I asked.
“I lead songs for my sorority.”
“Oh, what sorority is that?”
“AO Pi.”
             “Oh”,
             “We’re cool," she said.
Soon after that I restored my CD mandala some more. Then I went to Crazy Dog’s where I got a new bottle cap for my collection from my drink and enjoyed The Simpsons, albeit only with subtitles. I got back and ran on the treadmill for about an hour, though having forgotten my headphones, and learned more about mammals in South Africa. Then I got back and got to know Jeremy, including that he is a junior pre-med transfer student from a community college in St. Charles and goes home once a month to work with the Marines, which he is in. After that I talked to Erin, who reminded me that it is up to me whether I continue with my schooling after college.

















Rainbow color interior often used to represent autism along with the rainbow infinity symbol for autism, the golden hat for the Golden Hat Foundation for autism, gold-light up during April for Autism Acceptance Month, dragonfly of the Autism Women's Network, glowing head of ThAutCast, waving hands of Autism Positivity Flash Blog, the rainbow septagram of the Autistic Self-Advocacy Network, the flames of the Autism Network International, and red-also light up during April for Autism Acceptance.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Winter Break Before Vacation 2014


The day after I got back from UCM I finished a drawing I had started the day before: on one side was the face of Mahatma Gandhi; on the other Thorin Oakenshield, the dwarf leader from The Hobbit. While Gandhi was an ascetic who freed India through peaceful means and had a tendency towards forgiveness, Thorin was vengeful, whether towards Smaug or Azog, and sought to reclaim his people’s treasure horde, but the way I saw it, the yin-yang was present: both loved the people, and were willing to fight, even die for them. I finished the picture and posted it on Facebook.
                Later I saw Kelly Green, autistic activist and moderator of the Facebook page and website Artists and Autism, left a comment asking me if she could put it on Artists and Autism’s page, to which I said I would love that. Later I went down to Better Cheddar, where I got a new bottle cap for my collection from my drink and found another one near the tenant’s recycling bins.  
                The next day I found another bottle cap for my collecting near the tenant’s recycling bins. Then I went to Starbuck’s where I read more of Water Touching Stone. I got back and made another coaster from receipts and worked on some more plastic bag yarn, or “plarn.” My mom and Dave paid me to drive them to and back from Homestead Country Club and when I got back, I made some more plarn and worked on some more receipt coasters. I soon saw my picture that was shared on Artists and Autism got over six hundred likes on Facebook. 
                The next day I read more of Water Touching Stone at Starbuck’s before I went to Hen House to work. After that I got another bottle cap from a drink I got there. I got back and talked to Tyler. I went to work the next day and got a different bottle cap from my drinks that I got afterwards. On Friday Erin and I got together at the Cheesecake Factory, and I gave her the drawing for a birthday/Christmas present, and she gave me a documentary The Tibetan Book of the Dead. The next day I did a drawing of Peter, which I showed to my mom and Dave it and they loved it. Then I did a drawing of Hook and started one of Reeder. I showed my mom them and my drawing of Elsa from Frozen, and she loved them. On Sunday, I chipped in with Cam and Jamie for a present for my mom and Dave and decided to give Aunt Laura one of my toilet paper roll wall pieces. I also went to work and got a new bottle cap from my drinks after that. After that I went to work again and got a different bottle cap at the CVS in the shopping square after I got off work. On Wednesday I got together with Tyler and we saw The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies, which we both particularly enjoyed. My family and I had Christmas Eve dinner of steak followed by Andres matterhorn and pastries for dessert. That night, Jamie saw my toilet paper roll wall piece, which he took a picture of and shared it with Artists and Autism, writing:

My 25 year old (older) brother with Asperger's Syndrome made this out of toilet paper roll cardboard. He makes recycled artwork and his name is Ben Edwards.

                After that I opened my stocking getting a beer magnet bottle opener, some chocolates, two packs of Orbit gum, some “Hello Titty” condoms, an eraser, a dream catcher, and a Tequila Worm lollipop from my mom and Dave. Then I gave my presents of paracord bracelets to Jamie, Cam, Kate, and Graham. I also got The Promise of a Pencil: How Ordinary People Can Do Extraordinary Things, a beer mug from my mom’s and Dave’s trip to Germany, a photo of an endangered duckling from New Hampshire, the Lego Architecture Imperial Hotel from my mom and Dave, a completed theme song for Cheap Charlie, a mock reality show idea I had for my mom’s dad, who was known to be extremely cheap, from Jamie, and some gummy bears and bottle caps from Cam. Then we had bacon, eggs, and mimosas for breakfast along with some cinnamon rolls. Then my dad picked us up and we went to our grandparent’s house. I gave everyone their gifts and they loved them. My grandparents gave each of us grandchildren one hundred dollars, my dad and Sherry gave me National Geographic’s Backyard Guide to Birds of North America, The Tao of Leadership: Lao Tzu’s Tao Te Ching Adapted for a New Age, and a Buddhist mudra candle holder, while Todd, Laura, Abby, and Eric gave me the Lego Villa Savoye and The Gallery of the Celestial Buddhas. My aunt, of course, loved my wall piece. Then we went on our annual Christmas walk around the neighborhood. I got back and built the Villa Savoye. Then we had Christmas dinner and cookies. After that we played Pictionary. I also saw my toilet paper roll wall piece had gotten over three thousand likes on Artists and Autism.
                I got a call from Hen House asking if I could work tomorrow from 11-7:30, and I said I could. Then I finished my drawing of Reeder. After that I went down to work where I got a non-crown bottle cap and a USDA bottle cap from my drinks on my break. I also realized that that if UCM’s Autism Awareness” Homecoming queen Caitlin Stauffer really has done more for the autistics at UCM than me, why are they still unwilling to come out of the autism closet, and why have I never seen a poster by her on autism in the Union, or a blog by her? I got back and asked my mom to deposit my paycheck and my one-hundred-dollar bill from my grandparents, and she said she would.
 
Princess Anna, top middle; Peter, top right; Erin; bottom left; Jennifer, bottom middle
 

 

 

 
 


 
 

 
 
 

Friday, January 9, 2015

National Philanthropy Day


After a hardy weekend of blogging, I did some more crocheting on one of my belts. After that I took a walk down to a gas station clear my head before I needed to do it at night. Then I did a little bit of the reading for my Cinematography class, though I used the pictures in the book to help guide me a little bit. After that I took a walk down to Break Time and got some Flaming Hot Cheetos’s.
                I went to my Cinematography class where I got a ten out of ten on the quiz, and it helped rekindle my passion a little bit for filmmaking. Afterwards I went down to Crazy Dog’s and enjoyed some boneless honey barbecue chicken wings, and got a canned coke instead of a beer, cutting down on the glass consumption to take to the recycling center, while still not consuming non-recyclable products. I got back and saw Sara, Kameron, and Beth as they were about to go down to Late Night and joined them, at the same table that April and Morgan were sitting at, shortly joined by Drake, and Sara and Beth later went back to the grill to get some more food, before which Sara asked if I wanted anything. After deciding to go up to see what else was being served, I stood in line with Sara and Beth, enjoying their company. Sara, Beth, and Kameron soon finished eating, and Sara asked if I was ready to go back, and I went back up with them, during which time she held the door to the third floor open for me. Soon after that I read more of The Divine Madman. The next morning, I enjoyed a breakfast of donuts and bacon. Then I read a lot of the reading for my American Renaissance class, reading two chapters (which are all very short) at a time, and focusing only on other things after I’ve done them. After that I went to that class where I took part in the discussion and found out I got a B on the first draft of my article summary. 
                After class I made an appointment with Krisana West for the 25th, the earliest time she had available. I got back and worked on another wind chime made from bottle caps. Then I called Hen House, talked to Rick, and told him I was available to start working on the 23rd. After that I went to dinner where I wrote another haiku. Afterwards I played Candy Rain for a bit. After that I made some more plarn while running on the treadmill. Then I got back and ate at Late Night with April, Morgan, and Drake, while I saw on my Facebook messages a message from Marshall Edwards from ASAN-KC saying he thought they might be able to do something for National Philanthropy Day and asked if I could write a post for their Facebook page. I responded saying of course.  Later I played Candy Rain some more and saw Sara at the same time. I also realized I was going to need to reschedule my appointment with Krisana if I’m going to start working by the 23rd.
                The next morning, I worked on one of my belts made from plarn. Then I went to the Office of Academic Advising and rescheduled my appointment with Krisana for 8:30 on December 2nd. I got back and worked on an article for ASAN-KC for National Philanthropy Day, while I saw Sara pass through the lounge, and we said hello. After I finished the article, I sent it to Marshall, and he said he and Spencer would take a look at it. Then I worked on my belt some more. After that I finished reading all of yesterday’s reading for my American Renaissance class, again seeing Sara pass through the lounge going from her room to her car on her way to a friend’s house, and then back to get her cell-phone charger. Then I read a lot of the reading for my Anthropology of Food class while running on the treadmill. I got back and went to Late Night where I saw April and Morgan leaving. Soon afterwards I read a lot more of the reading for my Anthropology of Food class. After that I took a walk to the Union outside where I danced with Hook, on my way realizing that maybe the walk to the Union, much like the journey to the sites in Tibet, Nepal, and Bhutan for Buddhist pilgrims in northern India is what the pilgrimage is about, and just as the journey that led me to that part of the Union the night, I danced there has been an incredible journey. On my way back I thought longingly of flaming hot Cheetos's realizing that maybe foods do have temperatures like the Greek philosopher Galen had said. Over time, my passion against Autism Speaks was growing stronger and stronger, and I thought Maybe it was time to get Alpha Xi Delta’s attention on the issue by creating a volley of one-star reviews on their page for their support of AS, until their average drops so much that we get their attention, and I should be the one to start it.  Feeling too tired to write anything though, I simply gave them a one-star review for the time.  The next day after my classes got out, I decided it was time to do it, but I was scared, remembering stories of fellow autistics protesting Autism Speaks who faced threats, harassment, and even violence for their beliefs, but as I got on Facebook, I saw a post that Desiree had shared showing World War II soldiers on D-Day with a quote saying, “Courage does not mean you are not afraid.  It means you do it anyway.”
                My heart racing, I went on AZD’s page where I saw a post of a poster of a very attractive blonde girl, Jackie Boyland of the sorority saying, “I can’t imagine what it’s like to hear your child has autism.  Now you know your life is changed forever.  It happens every twenty minutes.  In a split second, tomorrow will never be the same.”
                That was it. I went to my review, and I wrote:

 I am a twenty-five year old man, have a job, and can speak perfectly, yet according to Alpha Xi Delta, I am a speechless six year old who is consistently having tantrums.  That is their basic overall impression of Autistic (yes, I say autistic because I’m not ashamed) like me.  You won’t hear anything about Jerry Seinfeld or Daryl Hannah who have all claimed to be autistic.  You never see any other type of information from them or their partner Autism Speaks.  I believe that to believe their organizations message of curing autism, you have to believe one of two things: either that autism prevents one from living a happy, fulfilling life; or that it somehow makes your personhood less than that of non-autistic people.  I along with other autistic activists like Lydia Brown, Amy Sequenzia, Temple Grandin and so on, show that is not true.  Some of us can’t speak or live up to conventional markers of success, but we can contribute far more than AXiD or AS gives us credit for.  None of AXiD’s money that it has raised has helped autistics live fully independent lives with their current condition as I am able to do now, but support eugenic research on autism akin to what has happened to Down syndrome for so many years.  Look it up on Autism Speaks tax returns on their own website.  Autism Speaks and their partners have done this by using material that portrays autism to be the equivalent of a car wreck or being struck by lightning.  We deserve better than that.  And all the while, AS includes no autistic people in its board or governing decisions in becoming the most trusted name in autism politics.  AXiD will not give you information or services geared towards helping autism, only demonizing stigma and propaganda.  They probably just looked for the first thing they found when they looked up autism to be their philanthropy so they could have a charity to be recognized without having to put in any effort, as there are so many other organizations with less harmful spending, membership, and informational qualities, such as the Autistic Self-Advocacy Network, the Autism Women’s Network, the Autism Society of America, and the Global and Regional Asperger Syndrome Partnership.  In short, AXiD does the bare minimum in trying to help the autism world.  You won’t find any information, material, or services here: just stigmatizing, infantilizing, rhetorical propaganda.  I give this organization one star because I can’t give it zero.

                Suddenly my heart was racing. I was ready for all the hate mail and threats from AZD members. I was just glad they didn’t exist at UCM, or I would have been afraid to go out at night alone for fear of being assaulted. I thought though, that if I was the first to do it, other autistics who may want to speak up against AZD’s support of Autism Speaks might be able to do it to. I got back to my dorm, and called my granddad, telling him what I did. He said it was good I finally did that. I told him about Jackie Boyland’s quote, and he thought it was laughable, and he agreed that Sandy Edwards, AZD national president, is probably just a young twenty-year-old who doesn’t know how to lead a group, so rather than deal with criticism, she censors everyone in her sorority who doesn’t agree with her. He had told me that his dad always said the problem with fraternities and sororities is that they are run by nineteen-year-olds, and he experienced that problem when he was in his old college fraternity. I did agree to send him a copy of my review and my Scream through e-mail.
                I spent most of the rest of the afternoon drawing, completing my picture of the Autistic Scream. Then I went out into the lounge and worked on some more drawings, including two from The Tales of Aragorn and Arwen from the appendices of The Lord of the Rings of Aragorn as a ranger before the events of The Lord of the Rings, while I sat out there with Josiah, Josh, and Katie. Katie saw me drawing and asked to see some of my work. I handed me sketchbook to her, still unready to show the Autistic Scream to just anyone yet, but as she flipped through the pages, they all saw the picture and thought it was just The Scream, not noticing the unique cultural nuances to it, for which I was grateful. I liked and trusted the three of them very much but knew few of the world outside the autistic community knew about the controversy of Autism Speaks and did not feel able to explain it to them. They did see all my drawings though and were very impressed with my work.
                I called my dad that night, and told him about what I did today, and he understood why I was nervous. He laughed when I told him the quote by the blonde AZD girl, and thought, like my granddad, that perhaps these young girls did not have the leadership skills to deal with criticism of AS within their organization and agreed that AZD’s support of AS was different from that of Home Depot or Dollar General because these girls would not be part of AZD for their whole lives. I did feel some comfort knowing that AZD’s post of that blonde girl’s quote had only gotten two likes, and their posts about AS in general got less than forty likes, so perhaps moral for AS was low in AZD. Still, it was with great anxiety that I went on Facebook on my phone, but saw to my relief, that I had not yet gotten any “hate mail” from angry AZD members.
The next day after meditation and prayers, I finished working on The Scream, closing my sketchbook right before Jacob came and joined me at my table, who I was glad to see. While I showered, I got a call on my cellphone, and when I got out, I saw it was from an unknown number in San Francisco and decided not to return the call. Then I worked on writing down lists of words for autism-themed crossword puzzles and word searches and got the idea to make an Autistic Mahjong set, and I got the idea we could give these word searches and crossword puzzles to people who might potentially join the group to get them to rethink embracing their condition while I saw Sara walk by, leaving to go home. Afterwards, inspired by Timber Hawk’s (author of Buddhist Boot Camp) advice to express gratitude on Facebook, I wrote a post on Facebook in the spirit of Thanksgiving saying what I was grateful for in the world of autism, trying to feel better about the situation of the autistic community as it was just then, and it went:

Autism post in the spirit of the holiday-three things I am grateful for: I am grateful to have a wonderful Autistic Self-Advocacy Network chapter in my hometown of Greater Kansas City, whose members are so kind to me and supportive, and whose meetings I can attend on-line while I am away at school at Central Missouri. I am grateful for my enormous help and support being given, at home and at school, for starting a student organization and social network for autistic students called the Autistic Student and Peer Organization. I know because of these groups that far-reaching grassroots impact is possible when you have people committed to doing the job. I am grateful for my abilities I have been given and the support in starting my two autism blogs, Ben's Blog and The Autistic Dharma. The support I have received from my friends, family, and colleagues lets me know that a group of people, no matter how small, unknown, or unheard of, can make a lasting impact in the world that can affect us for the rest of our lives. Happy Thanksgiving, everybody.
 
That afternoon, I went down to the Union bookstore and got some more mechanical pencils.  Then I went down to Crazy Dog’s enjoying some honey barbecue wings as a reward for my standing up to Alpha Xi Delta. I got back and did another food journal entry for my Anthropology of Food class. I also saw eight people, including Alexandra, Mckinsey, Ari Ne’eman president of ASAN national, and my dad like the post. Then I wrote down some more poems. After that I made another coaster from receipts. I also talked to my granddad, and he said he and my grandmom were both very impressed with my Facebook post, thinking it was a nice refresher from a world where people are always complaining. After running and talking to my dad, I hung my wind chime up. After that I took a walk down to Break Time and got another Snapple cap from my drink.
The next morning, I saw my post that I had written for National Philanthropy Day on ASAN-KC’s Facebook page, just as I had written it, going:

National Philanthropy Day-Why the Autistic Self-Advocacy Network Matters on it

National Philanthropy Day is a day set aside on November 15 every year, signed into law in 1986 by President Ronald Reagan, to “recognize the great contributions of philanthropy—and those people active in the philanthropic community—to the enrichment of our world,” according to the Association of Fundraising Professionals.  In this respect, the Autistic Self-Advocacy Network, a 501(c)(3) non-profit organization run by and for autistic people, especially should be recognized among the most well-known faces of the autism community today by people celebrating NPD.  Our organization, founded in 2006 by two college students, Ari Ne’eman and Scott Robertson, is a response to social inequities among autistics, including restraint and seclusion in public schools, underrepresentation in employment and higher education, abuse by police forces, and discrimination in receiving medical treatments, including life-saving operations due to the belief that disabled lessare less of a priority than the non-disabled.  Some of our contributions include the ASAN Toolkit for Advocates on Ending Discrimination in Organ Transplantation, the ASAN Toolkit for Advocates on Health Care and Transitioning into Adulthood, and the ASAN Toolkit on Improving Home and Community-Based Services, which can all be found on their website autisticadvocacy.org.  On that note, ASAN shows great initiative to provide concrete, discernable differences for autistic individuals compared to many larger, more publicized autism organizations.  I believe it particularly deserves recognition among the autism community.

ASAN’s selflessness in utilizing their resources for communities and families is evident because all of our executives are volunteers, with exception of President Ne’eman, who earns $65,000 a year in Washington D.C., running ASAN as a full-time job.  Meanwhile, ASAN played a major role in the Autism Collaboration, Accountability, Research, Education, and Support (CARES) Act of 2014.  Originally the Combat Autism Act, ASAN and their collaborators, such the Global and Regional Asperger Syndrome Partnership, prompted the name change, believing the term “combat autism” was too stigmatizing.  We have also encouraged legislators to push for more autistic representation in the bill’s research and more funding for autism services (originally only 2.4% for children and 1.5% for adults).  Clearly ASAN has been a real asset to address the future prospects for autistic individuals that concern their families and loved ones. 
As an active member of ASAN’s Kansas City chapter, I feel my opinions and ideas about issues that affect me the most are not discounted because I am autistic.  Autistics, parent, ally, and professional of autistic individuals are all allowed to take part in the meetings of ASAN regardless of whether they are verbal, use a type-pad, or any other form of communication.  Autistics, like me, know I that at our meetings I can be openly and unapologetically autistic, which I rarely feel anywhere else.  It is a breath of fresh air and a truly liberating experience.  Here, people recognize my individual worth, dignity, and rights without the need for labels like “high-functioning” or “low-functioning,” which is what philanthropy is about.  Today let’s be true to its spirit and recognize the desire to improve other’s well-beings.

Joy spread throughout my body. Quickly, I put in the comment section, “Thank you, everyone for your support. Teigan commented back saying, “Well written.” I shared it on my Facebook page, and soon Barbara shared it on her page, saying, “UCM’s very own Ben Edwards.” My mom also commented on my post saying, “Wonderful, Ben.  As always, I’m proud of you and your activism.”
 
 
Aragorn in the land of Harad, in the far south of Middle Earth

Aragron in Moria

 
 
 

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Coming Out of the Autism Closet


The day after I got back to school, I went with Hillary to Hasting’s, where I got the book Tanaina Tales of Alaska about stories from the native Tanaina people of Alaska. I felt tired that night, feeling, more than ever, like I had aged from years of trying to advocate for autism. The next day after class was out, I went on the page through Facebook for the event Tell Dr. Phil and the Media that Issy Stapleton is the VICTIM, about a severely autistic girl Issy Stapleton, whose mother Kelli tried to murder her, rationalizing it by saying there “weren’t enough services” for her daughter. To try and get Dr. Phil not to sympathize with Kelli, I wrote:

Honoring a woman for trying to murder her autistic daughter is tantamount to genocide. If a woman was honored for trying to murder her gay son, what would that say about our attitudes towards homosexuals. Yes, autistics do suffer from discrimination, but murder is not the way families show sympathy for groups and individuals whose rights and dignity they respect. If we care about the crisis of autism discrimination, we need to raise attention to the issue without devaluing autistic lives. Issy's mother does not represent any mother or parent of an autistic child that I know, including autistics who you would call mild and severe. Let's not liken them to murderers, but show their sacrifice and courage to give their children the best life under the best and worst of circumstances, and in doing so let us give support to the millions of parents with autistic children facing the daunting task of nurturing them under discrimination and create a better, more hopeful world for autistics and their caregivers.

I also filled out the paperwork to reserve a room in the Union for the group, which I decided to call the Autistic Student and Peer Organization. That night I went to bed, so tired, feeling, more than ever, like I had aged from years of trying to advocate for autism, and wondering how I would find myself able to keep up with all my school work let alone the UCM autism group. The next day I went to my meeting with Barbara. I told her that I thought we needed to change the name of the Autism Spectrum Support Group to something different; something that made it sound less like the students in it were going there for help. She liked that idea. She also recommended we replace the old displays about autism in the OAS’s display case, and she said that there was a THRIVE student interning at the Muleskinner, who may be willing to interview us about the group, which would be an ideal way to put out that we are looking for peer mentors. 
I got back and saw Sara as I was going to return my books to the library. I then went to the library and returned my books, which were due that day. I got back and read more of my book for my American Renaissance class. On my way back, feeling that I did not have the time or the energy to walk down to the sheltered workshop to recycle my bottles, I called Hillary to ask her for a ride down there. She said she was unable to because she had an event to go to but said that Philip could give me a ride. I went upstairs and made another bracelet and started on another one. Then Philip drove me down to the sheltered workshop where I recycled my glass and his recyclables, found three more bottle caps for my collection, and collected his things to repurpose. I got back and Josiah gave me his receipts. I saw Sara coming back and forth and she smiled and blushed as she saw me, while I made another coaster for the silent auction and finished the one I started on. After that I finished the bracelet I started on earlier. 
I saw Sara going down to dinner and I went with her. She held the door open for me on the way down and I told her how I was making a bracelet every day until November. She asked me what that was for, and I told her it was for a silent auction for a group I was a part of. She asked me what group that was, and I said it was the Autistic Self-Advocacy Network. She said, “That’s cool.”
As we went into the dining hall, she told me where she was going to sit. After I sat down, she sat down with me. I learned then that she wasn’t on Facebook and that she loves The Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit movies. After we left, she told me she’s watched all The Lord of the Rings extended versions back-to-back taking over nine hours. As I got up, she held the door open for me again. About half an hour after that, I noticed the feeling of having aged that I was so accustomed to had lessened significantly.
Later I made another paracord bracelet to sell for the silent auction. Soon after that I talked to my granddad, and he agreed that it was a good idea to change the name of the UCM group. After that I worked on my final copy for my paper for my American Renaissance class. Then I went to Late Night with Hillary and Philip. After that we went down to Break Time and bought a twenty-pack of beer, for which Philip gave me the receipt for. I also got a paracord bracelet, which had a unique pattern that I thought I could do myself.  We got back and hung out with Hillary’s and Philip’s friends Tay and Kelsey. 

The next day I sat with Blair at breakfast, before finishing the final revisions for my Anthropology of Food class. After that class, I sat with Jade at lunch while enjoying a delicious spicy chicken burrito. Then I read a lot of the reading for my Anthropology of Food class. During that class, we talked about our author Fuller’s view of having children, a mother saying how her son has Asperger syndrome and learned to read encyclopedias at nine years old, and despite being neglected by the school system and having his rights infringed upon is no in his second semester of college. I thought about the idea that girls can’t be autistic because they don’t stick out, and I realized that point of view is not only misogynistic, but is also based on a strong belief in autistic stereotypes (girls being quiet, not flapping their arms, etc.)

After my last class, I went down to Those Were the Days and got eleven more postcards, thinking longingly of all of them being framed in groups and individually next to each other in my future home. Then I went to Hasting’s and saw that the seven military classics of Ancient China were heavily based on Taoist principles, and emphasized speed, stealth, flexibility, and a minimum of force, in contrast to the modern Western military strategies. I got The Seven Military Strategies of Ancient China as well as Love Poems from God: Twelve Sacred Voices from the East and West and Minecraft Essential Survival Guide, perhaps to help someday set up Minecraft activities in school, as the organization the Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism had suggested as a way to help school’s extracurricular activities be inclusive of autistic people. After that I ate dinner at King’s Chef Buffet. I got back and made another bracelet.

I went down to the Alcohol Trivia night and got several free things afterwards, which everyone, winners and losers (our team lost) got. Then I made another paracord bracelet. After that I talked to Dad and Granddad. Then I went down to Late Night. I soon felt too tired to really be able to help Hillary with her English Composition I homework, and then I saw her, and she said she was too tired to work on it too, so we agreed to do it next week. After that I sorted a lot of recycling on campus. I got back and saw a lot of Saving Silverman with Mardy, who was watching it on his computer, and I was reminded of how much I loved that movie, and the part where Neil Diamond plays one of his songs on his guitar at the end to get a couple back together reminded me of the power poets and songwriters have on the minds of people, not just generators of words.  

The next morning, I sat in the dining hall with Paige, Levi, Allyssa, a new THRIVE student who I meet, Anna, and Blair, who decided to sit next to me. Then I looked at my UCM e-mail account, but for some reason did not see any e-mail about the meeting plans for ASPO. I did get an e-mail from my Creative Problem-Solving teacher though saying I had left my notebook behind in class and could come by her office before five to pick it up. I also learned about haigu, paintings Japanese haiku poets used to make based off their haiku and decided to make some yarn paintings based off mine for the silent auction. Later I made three more paracord bracelets. I then went down to the bank and got some quarters to do laundry. After that I got my notebook that I had left behind in my Creative Problem-Solving class. I got back and did a food journal entry for my Anthropology of Food class.  Then I made another bracelet.  After that I made some more plarn for a belt for the silent auction. I later went down to the treadmill and started making another friendship bracelet and kept working on it when I got back to my dorm. I also realized that the screen on my phone won’t come on, due to a crack in it from a year earlier, and I need to go down to the Verizon store to get it fixed.

I had brunch with Paige, Amanda, a new THRIVE student who I met, and Haley, a blind student who I’ve seen around campus but never really talked to, while I worked on my bracelet from last night. Afterwards I worked on it some more. Then I went down to the Verizon store, where I called Mom and Dave, and left them a message about my phone situation. They told me at the store, however, that they wouldn’t be able to fix my phone, and the only place that could do that was the computer store in Warrensburg, which was closed on weekends. On my way back I picked up several more recyclables.

I got back and took out my recycling. Then I went to Those Were the Days and got some more embroidery floss.  I picked up and recycled some more recyclables on the way back. After that I worked on my bracelet some more.  I worked on it a bit at dinner, during which time I saw Kelsey, the THRIVE mentor, who told me they’d let me know when the THRIVE students will be working on the float and that they are using Mr. B’s trailer. She also liked the bracelet I was making. After that I borrowed Josh’s phone and talked to Mom, who said they ordered me a new phone thinking it was time for an upgrade anyway, which I could pick up the next day at the Verizon store. I worked on my bracelet some more after that. Then I ran on the treadmill for about an hour while making some more plarn for my belt for the silent auction. I got back and did my laundry while I worked on my bracelet some more, remembering how Mom always was glad there was the autistic community, so I would never feel alone. I also made another bracelet while I realized that if I did date an autistic girl, I might be able to appreciate her for her unique traits as a lover more than other guys would be able to do.
The next day I ate with Anna and Amanda while I worked on my bracelet. I got back to my dorm and worked on my bracelet some more. Then I went down to the Verizon store where I found out I had an order in my account, which would be completed by tonight, but until that time, they would not be able to give me my phone, which Mom explained via their work phone was because they ordered more gigabytes for all our phones. On my way back a car pulled up and the driver, a dark-haired female, called my name from the window. It was April, and she offered to give me a ride to wherever I needed to go. On the way back I told her a little bit about my arts and crafts and she how her brother made crafts for Boy Scouts, which they sold, and she shared with me some donuts, which she said she has because she works at a donut shop, and I enjoyed a delicious glaze donut and a banana-filled chocolate sprinkled donut. I got back and recycled some stuff I found along the way back. 
I went down to the dining hall, joined by April along the way, and learned she takes classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, as she also works in Warrensburg. I also remembered that one thing ASAN does is help college students start campus organizations for autistic students. Then I went down to the library and found several books on Amos Bronson Alcott for my American Renaissance class. I picked them out and then started doing my paper. After that I checked out all those books. I got back and went to dinner, where I saw April sitting with a guy from school and joined them. I learned the man was Alex from my Anthropology of Food class, after he asked me how I enjoyed that class, and we enjoyed talking about classes, and I learned that April had Dr. Yelton for an Intro. to Anthropology class.
I got back to my dorm and made another bracelet. Then I continued working on the one I had been working on for the last two days. I ran on the treadmill for about an hour while I made some more plarn for my belt. I got back and finished making the bracelet I had been working on for the last two days and it looked great.  I also made some more plarn for my belt, while I realized that if my group gets going, I can be a resource for ASAN-KC and all of ASAN to help autistic college students start groups like mine at universities, and that if we educate individual Alpha Xi Delta chapter leaders on Autism Speaks, we can increase the likelihood that the issue will be brought up to the National Council. I also realized that the things we ASAN members make for the silent auction, like the stuff I make, will show the public how committed we ASAN members are to our cause when they see the hard work we’re willing to put into to them.

On Monday I went down to the Verizon store and got my new phone and the protection case.  On my way back I ran into Kriti and she gave me a ride. I got back and read the reading for my Cinematography class. I went to that class where I got ten out of ten on the quiz. Then I just starting feeling frustrated about my struggles to write a good haiku. After class I talked to Erin. I got back and heard Mardy say a guy named Alex was looking for me asking about homework, and I realized it must have been the guy from my Anthropology of Food class. Then I ran on the treadmill for about an hour while reading more of The Art of War. Then I saw Alex at Late Night and he asked if there was any homework due tomorrow, which I told him there wasn’t. I also read down there on my phone that a good haiku commented on something from ones daily life and who it related to life itself. 
I went down to Break Time and got some Doritos, and on my way back I thought about the goose I saw running in the streets of Warrensburg at night, and it reminded me of the saying “Not all who wander are lost.” And that spoke very true to me, like having love interests who are selfish and egotistical and ends up being like a siren to Greek mariners rather than a companion, but we find our way out, just like the goose managed to survive in the city with its cars and traffic. And in the same way, I am like the goose being an autistic in a neurotypical-dominated world. I remembered to that a few yards away, a flock of geese were quacking, as if they missed their member who was missing. Perhaps, I thought remembering how Teigan said they had tried to get me involved with ASAN-KC for a long time, I was the lost goose, and the others were ASAN-KC. Then I thought that goose would make a wonderful subject for a haiku. When I got back Hillary suggested we work on the journal entries another night this week, which was a relief to me. Soon after that I posted on Facebook the news about me good quiz results, to show life as an autistic in college. I also did write a haiku going:

A lone goose
wanders through the streets
in an urban environment.

Not exactly the traditional haiku structure, but oh well.
The next morning, I had breakfast with April. Then I read a lot of the reading for my Anthropology of Food class. After class I read a lot of the reading for my American Renaissance class, while I sat with Josiah. After my Creative Problem-Solving class I got myself a white chocolate blast at Jazzman’s as a reward for all my hard work. I also saw on Facebook that I had gotten a message from a woman named Katie Lindgren, who told me she was a literature teacher at Horizon Academy, and that my former teacher of mine, her colleague, Vicki Asher, referred her to me, saying I had started an autism group at Johnson County Community College. She and her class had just finished reading John Elder Robison’s book Look Me in the Eye about his life with Asperger syndrome, and they really connected to it. They also wanted someone to come talk to them about opportunities out there for adults with autism and wanted to know if I were able to come speak to her class about my transition from Horizon to adulthood. Realizing I don’t have classes on Fridays, I messaged her back saying I could speak to them next Friday. She responded saying that would be great. I realized how we the autistic community, I realized that, like any culture, the beliefs of us autistic people, both temporal and religious, have been shaped by our common experiences. 
That night I ended up missing dinner time in the dining hall. I made another bracelet and then a coaster, realizing afterwards that I needed to make three more coasters to have six sets. I soon came to realize that autism discrimination against females is basically another form of rape because without the right social skills, autistic females may rely on physical intimacy more to stay in a relationship and might not know how to assert their boundaries in such a capacity. I later made another friendship bracelet for the silent auction. Later I went down to Late Night and had a coke while I made a bracelet from plarn. Then I went to Break Time and got some Altoids, trying to ease my sense of disorientation, before going to Planet Sub and eating a big meaty sandwich to make up for the dinner I hadn’t had. I was awake well into the night, and ended up drinking a beer before sleep, getting a new bottle cap for my collection along with it. The next day I then had a realization: that autistic people worked so hard to pretend to be “normal” (not autistic), and that going to an autism group would mean they have to work harder to pretend by having to make sure no one they knew found out they were in it, and thus might not come to the group for that reason. Instantly, I went down to the OAS Office to make an appointment with Barbara on how to mitigate that problem. 

On Saturday I went down to Hillary’s room and met her friend John. After that I met her dad and after we went to the bookstore to get some medicine for his back, which he hurt last night mowing the lawn, we ate brunch outside the Union and got plenty of free stuff. We saw President Ambrose after that, and then went to his lawn where I saw Barbara and Mr. B, and met Jane, a new THRIVE intern, and got plenty more free stuff.  Hillary’s dad left and then she, John, and I went to the football game. She left in the middle to take John home and then I wrote down a list of Autist Dharma posts I wish to do, which numbered to ten. I got back to my dorm and worked on a friendship bracelet for the silent auction, during which time Tyler called. I decided later this weekend I would call him back. I went down to the Burg Fest with Hillary, where I had some old-fashioned root beer. We got dinner and sat down watching a band perform. During that time, I was inspired to write to more haiku from two pictures I shared on Facebook, and I learned that due to Boycott Autism Speaks, Panera Breads had also stopped sponsoring Autism Speaks. Hillary and I also shared kettle corn. Mardy joined us and we saw a fire dancer. Then we were joined by Michelle and I had a caramel apple. The four of us shared funnel cake and I got the idea to use my root beer bottle to make a ship-in-a-bottle for the silent auction, for which I realized I would need really long tweezers that I could probably order off Amazon.
The next morning, I started on my American Renaissance paper. Then I made two more coasters while I saw Drake demand Sara give him back his flip-flops, which he threw at her, and she said to me, “watch out,” and threw them back at Drake. Then I made some more plarn. I called Tyler and apologized for not being able to talk to him yesterday, and then Erin. I got back and made some more plarn while I heard Mom say she and Dave would be in Colorado until next Monday, and she suggested I get a ride home with Granddad on Thursday. Then I finished most of my American Renaissance paper while I worked on another friendship bracelet, while I also saw Sara wrestle Drake outside her dorm. I talked to Granddad, who said that either he or Grandmom would be able to give me a ride back home. Then I went to Break Time and got some Doritos and Altoids. Then I went into the lounge where I hung out with two girls from my hall, Desiree and Kaitlin, and a guy from another hall named Dakota, and we were quickly joined by Sara. I went to the doorway to our hall to talk to them, and then I saw on Sara’s right foot a tattoo that looked strangely like the autism awareness puzzle piece ribbon with purple, blue, red, and yellow puzzle pieces, almost able to tell what the shapes within the ribbon were. I casually sat down to get a better look at it, and she started running her fingers through and twirling her hair, eventually saying she had a knot in it and had to leave to go comb it. Desiree looked over at me smiling.
 
The next Monday I then read more of my Alaskan myth book during brunch. I also realized that if I were to get people to “come out of the autism closet,” I would have to be the first to do so, as Gandhi once stated, “Be the change you wish to see in the world.” And suddenly an idea came to me, one that seemed a bit nerve-racking. I took my mind of it, drawing the figures for the diorama for my Cinematography class. After that I drew a poster for with the letters ‘A-S-A-N’ at the top, the words ‘Autistic Self-Advocacy Network’ below that, the Autistic Self-Advocacy Network’s logo below that, the words ‘Kansas City’ below that, the words ‘Nothing about us without us’ below that with the last two words underlined in red as they were at the very bottom, and below that ASAN-KC’s website and Facebook profile picture below it, and posted it out on my door. I realized that most people may know an autistic person or someone who knows an autistic person but would good would it do if so many of these people are not open about their condition. I left for class, feeling anxious about putting the sign on the door, remembering how last year I seemed to do all I could to stay in the autism closet.
After my Cinematography class got out at 6:20, I had some pieces of bread for dinner, as the dining hall closed at 6:30 and the Autistic Self-Advocacy Network of Kansas City meeting started at 7. In the meantime, I worked more on my American Renaissance paper and wrote another haiku. Then I went to the meeting where we talked about an autism app that allowed people to use flowcharts to help them make decisions about work, social media, and face-to-face interaction, and Elizabeth suggested I get several THRIVE students to test it, and I agreed to bring it up to Barbara at my meeting with her on Wednesday. Soon after that we talked about our petition to Netflix, and I agreed to share it with some of my autism groups on Facebook. After that we talked about how we would be presenting at Disability Mentoring Day at Mid-American Nazarene University on October 17. Then we talked about our presentation at JCCC and planned to meet at Spencer’s (one of our members) house to practice for it.
After the meeting I talked to my dad and granddad, telling them about the meeting and the sign I put up on my door, which they thought was a great idea. The day went by and people in the hall still talked to me and treated me very much the same, some even friendlier. The next day after all my classes, I went to the Union and on the way got a good picture of a squirrel up close. There I did a post on Facebook saying:

I have been trying for almost two years to start an autism student organization at my college, the University of Central Missouri, and have been having limited success in getting students to join. What I've heard said is that autistic people often spend their day trying to pass for "normal," or pretending to fit in, and it becomes so exhausting trying to do so and figure out what everyone is thinking. So basically, my goal at each college I have been to is to create a thriving, open autistic culture at them, where autism is not seen as some abnormality, but part of the fabric of the place where people are accepted; a place where people, as I heard it said, can "come out of the autism closet." At JCCC, I believe, I was certainly successful. I started the JCCC Autism Spectrum Support Club and it rose up to at least eighty members in under five years, and is on the official list of student organizations. At UCM, the problem has been more difficult. Autistic students live closer and are more frequently in contact with people who might not be so accepting of them as autistic people, people who I have seen more than I wish to at UCM. So therefore, when you take into account the challenges mentioned earlier of trying to fit in, the students also have to sort of hide the fact that they are in an autism group, which we have now decided to call the Autistic Student and Peer Organization instead of the Autism Spectrum Support Group to sound less pathologizing. Basically my challenge is to create a campus where autistics are open and out of the autism closet, and I realized I have to start the trend myself, in other words, "Be the change I wish to see in the world." So yesterday, I found kind of a way to let my school mates and hall mates know I am on the spectrum. I drew a poster with the name of the Autistic Self-Advocacy Network of Kansas City, as well as ASAN's (national) logo, and the ASAN-KC web page and Facebook photo, which I hung outside my door. And I noticed nothing happened to me. People on my hall treated me just the same, saying hi to me and talking to me just as normal. Some even seemed more friendly towards me because I had come out of the autism closet. 

I also put a picture of my poster up with it. Soon afterwards, my friend Riccardo from Horizon shared the post and told Teigan and Marshall from ASAN-KC about it.  Marshall said, “Way too cool!  Thank you Ben, Riccardo.” Soon he and Teigan shared it, along with ASAN-KC, and Ari Ne’eman, the president of ASAN national. A Facebook friend, a father of a teenage autistic boy, who was autistic himself wrote, “Good work, Ben!” Joyce Downing from THRIVE wrote, “Being a positive example is a great first step.” My aunt Laura said, “This is great, Ben. Was wondering if you'd mind if I shared your post to my other Facebook friends? I think it's really well written. And well drawn, too.”  I thanked her and told her she could share it.  My grandmom wrote, “I'd like to share it too Ben. This was a wonderful idea!” My aunt Nini wrote, “Beautifully written, Ben! Here's hoping it will open some doors and some people's minds!” The first one, the father, also wrote, “Ben, if what you're doing were easy, everybody would do it. I tried for three years to get a friend's autistic college student to do some mentoring with my son, but he had worked so hard through high school to "pass" that he had no interest in stepping back into the autistic world. He would have been a great mentor, but was focused on the road ahead. I understood and respect him for his accomplishments (earned a CPA) and a corporate-cube job. Guys like you focus on the road ahead, but figure they may as well make it a bit easier for those coming behind, while they're at it. I applaud you for that.” Beth Rutt, the director of the Rec Center said, “Ben if there is anything we can do to help with your student organization please come see me. I would love to visit with you about the organization and maybe some things we can do to break down a barrier or two.  I'm really sorry to hear that you feel like it's been harder for you to fit in at UCM. If you want to visit come by the Student Activities Office, union 217 or the Student Rec Center. If I'm not at either one Tom or Paula can make an appointment. Hang in there Ben you are a man of great potential.”
On my way back I saw a flock of birds in the sky, realizing that they reach the sky when they work together. I got back and wrote in my poetry journal:

A flock of birds
fly through the sky
together.

             I decided I would do one yarn painting of several birds flying.
Later I hung out with Sara, Cameron, Jessie, and a friend of Sara’s. I then got a closer look at Sara’s tattoo and saw the shapes in there were indeed puzzle pieces. All the while I worked on another friendship bracelet for the silent auction, and a guy from my hall named Giovanni came up to me and said he would pay for a friendship bracelet like the one I was making to be done in green, white, and red, the colors of the Italian flag. Sara, Cameron, Jessie, and I all went down to Late Night together, and as I was about to tell Sara about my squirrel picture she shushed Cameron. Then we went up to watch the movie together, though Sara left some time before it started, and I went to go see where she was. After not finding her, I went and sorted some recycling around campus. Then I got back and made some more plarn.
Later I knocked on Sara’s door, around twelve, and said, “Hi, I…"
She said, “Sssuusshh. Keep your voice down.”
             She was right. I didn’t realize how loud it was and it was past quiet hours, and I was glad she had my back. I explained to her that I didn’t see her during the movie and was wondering where she’d been. She said she had gotten back a little later after I left. Then she noticed my plastic bags, asking, “What are you doing with those?”
             “Just making some plastic bag yarn, or plarn.”
             “Ok, well have fun with that.”
             She smiled and went back into her room.
             The next morning, I went to my meeting with Barbara where I realized an article written by Haley Moss on coming out of the autism closet may be a good resource for finding out how to make other autistic UCM students do the same, and interestingly enough, the article is from a girl with autism. I realized that if we could put a poster in the OAS Office’s display case on girls with autism and their signs and struggles, their friends might be better able to prevent them from running into the sorts of struggles those girls often face, and thus UCM’s female autistic population may see it’s better for them to be out of the autism closet than in it.  Barbara also suggested we put The Friend of Autism Pledge on the OAS and THRIVE Blackboard and the OAS subscription e-mail, as well as on the OAS display case. Then I posted The Friend of Autism Pledge on The Autist Dharma. After that I got some staples at the Union bookstore, printed a copy of The Friend of Autism Pledge off at the Lovinger building, and hung it up on my door, with a sheet to sign it behind it, so no one would feel uncomfortable with others seeing their name and autistic students wouldn’t feel like they live on a campus unfriendly to autism if they didn’t see any signatures, but of course I put my name down. After that I took all my pull tabs to the front desk, as Ellis was having a pull tab contest between North, South, and East Ellis.
                It started raining that day and I went to relax in the third-floor lounge. Afterwards I saw Sara walking through the lounge I was sitting in saying she was going to roll up her car window in the rain, though by that time it had already mostly stopped raining. I drank some more coffee afterwards, and then worked on my yarn painting some more. After that I went down to dinner with my hall, where I was joined by a student who I had never seen on the hall before. I made my bracelet for Giovanni, during which time I saw Sara and Cameron walk through the lounge that I was sitting in. Then I gave Giovanni his bracelet, and he paid me for it, for which I would give the proceeds to the screening of Citizen Autistic, for which ASAN-KC was holding their silent auction for. After that I went to Late Night.  I also made some more plarn. Then I sorted a lot of recycling throughout UCM, and then got back to the dorm and made some more plarn, and soon Hillary and Mardy came up and we hung out together.
                The next day I went to study for my Anthropology of Food test, which was the next day. I then went on my UCM e-mail account and saw that I hadn’t noticed the e-mail I had gotten from the Office of Student Activities saying the meeting was scheduled for today at 3:30. Shocked, I sent out an e-mail to all our members and Barbara, though I didn’t expect much attendance from sending it out at the last minute. Suddenly I packed up all my things, went back to my dorm, and worked on creating a sheet of our four basic rules for the group-Compliments, Courtesy, Confidentiality, and Conference, meaning you could meet with a peer mentor if you saw fit), a sheet on the peer mentor’s role, and about the way our group meets, to help the members understand it like I do. I went to the Union computer lab and printed off ten copies of these things. Then I went to the meeting at its scheduled time and Barbara came and met with me. Sure enough, we were the only ones there, but we did discuss some ideas that would help make the group more attractive. 
The next morning, I took my Anthropology of Food test in the Testing Center and felt I did fairly good. After that I read some of the reading for my American Renaissance class. After classes I got the idea to use my bottle from the Burg Fest to make a sand bottle painting. Then Granddad drove me to his and my grandmom's house, and along the way I found out how to do bottled sand paintings on my phone. At their house, Hurley, for the first time, brushed up against my leg, and I realized I forgot my medications and told my grandmom and granddad, and they agreed to give me rides to my destinations his week. Then my grandmom took me to Hen House to get some food for the weekend at home, and on the way, she said I should ask Sara about her tattoo. We went to Hen House where I saw Lee, who seemed happy to see me, and got some drinks with a new bottle cap for me to collect. Then we got the number of Dr. Mays at Bruce Smith Drugs so I could call him, and he could give me a refill of my medication prescriptions so I could get my medication. Then we went to Minskey’s together. After that I got back and called Erin. I also made some more plarn. Soon after that I learned that ASAN-KC is meeting at Spencer’s house at 4 on Saturday from Teigan, as well as that she might be coming to UCM as a commuter student next semester and realized she may be someone who could help in the group.